still an overwhelming feeling of sadness when i think of you.

you before.

you, when i loved you.

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life

i hope you had the time of your life…

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i hate that i cant call my dad and tell him i want to see him. i want to see him so badly. i miss him so much. i wish i could of seen him again before he died. i wish i could see him now. i wish i didnt have have to wish for it. i hate that he was taken away from me already. i hate this. i hate this so much. this feeling, of knowing im never going to see him again… is driving me insane. smoke till i choke is the only wasy to deal with it.

why is it i feel worse when i actually take my meds lol i dont want to take this shit anymore its been 3 years i dont want anymore damnit stop giving me meds fuck i want to be normal okay and feel normal things god fucking damnit

I HAVE FIGURED OUT THE SECRET TO IT BEING SOFT AND NOT ALL HARD AT THE EDGES GOD WHY AM I SUCH A GENIUS WHEN IM HIGH GOD THAT BURRITO WAS SO GOOD FUCK YOU BURRITO QUIT BEING GOOD

See, you don’t get to do that. To come into somebody’s life, make them care, and just check out.

smoked some good ass weed nigga boomdyclapdeclap

just one more song

to slay this earth

and i cant explain myself just what its worth

it was all i had

but not all i need

and i cant escape the fact that i still bleed

i want to yell at you so badly. so fucking badly. for my closure.

but you just had your kid. i knew there was a reason you went back to school. i just didnt find out for sure till now. i still know you so well. i still know why you do what you do. and i know you’re so fucking happy, and that i should be happy for you if i truly loved you. well fuck that, i truly did love you and i am not happy for you.

it still fucking hurts. it stings. it burns.

why do you get everything you wanted?
you think you deserve it? you think you deserve to have you happiness after you sucked mine out of me?

fuck you. you dont deserve it. 

And if you’re still feeling down 
And if this seems way too loud 
Then maybe you need me around

why do i feel like you’re hiding something from me

its probably cause you are

SHE SAW YOUR BUTT AHAWHAHHAJAHHHAAHAHAHIAHHAHA ok im over it

i type really obnoxious on tumblr ok but I type all proper and such on facebook.. idk which one the real me is. i think tumblr is lazy me and facebook is classy me.