i hate that i cant call my dad and tell him i want to see him. i want to see him so badly. i miss him so much. i wish i could of seen him again before he died. i wish i could see him now. i wish i didnt have have to wish for it. i hate that he was taken away from me already. i hate this. i hate this so much. this feeling, of knowing im never going to see him again… is driving me insane. smoke till i choke is the only wasy to deal with it.